reclining in a weathered deskchair
gut protruding with the exhaustion of my mid 60s
74 degree midnight
First day over 65 this year
The green was a minefield of fine
looking women
The shapes of their shades ablaze
Burned in my mind for days
I should take better care of myself
Less microwavable meals
More pickup basketball
The ones I see don’t see me
The ones that see me, I don’t want to see
I am still an asshole
Asceticism, alcoholism, apathy, anger, avoidance, acceptance
Straight As
And I’m still an asshole
